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July 19th, 2006 (12:30 pm)
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this is too hawt XD

Ninja!

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July 4th, 2006 (06:01 pm)

i will bw working for menarini starting from the 4th of september

still dunno if this is a good or bad new. anyways, i feel i should be happy.

life can be very mysterious sometimes

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smallish post

June 22nd, 2006 (07:39 pm)

another smallish post to give my best wishes to the three lovely girls undergoing their finals

hope the greek translation went good today, and that the last test for tomorrow will as well XD

just endure XD they will be finished even before you realize it


back to my oh so lovely slides fo tomorrow meeting *insert random throwing noises*

i want my pullip girls here, darn it!!!!!! why oh why the italian postal service is the slowest EVER?


HAPPY BIRTHDAY gudinne_skadi;
i know how bad it is, having your b-day during the finals XD


(it happened to me as well - oh soooo many years ago. well, actually it was three days before the math written exam...)

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TWENTY DAYS? oh noes

June 21st, 2006 (07:11 pm)
blank

current location: siena
the god is: who, me?

yes. twenty days. i thought things where better, they actually aren't.

job is killing me, i try to help everyone and no one helps me in turn. so i stay here till 8 while everyone else is already away at 6.30 pm. sigh at least my new boss seems to like me.

yesterday i had a job interview; if it goes fine i could be working for menarini next year. which is good.
menarini is in firenze. which is bad. i got so accustomed to living with my man that actually i can't even imagine a life on my own again... i'm getting old XD

well, i'm getting old, very soon. and on my birthday i will be probably stuck in a meeting from dawn to dusk. i do not cry because i'm an adult...
and i have the increasing sensation that i will come out all black and blue and broken bones from that meeting *tries not to think about it*

anyways, yesterday evening i heard a new from the TV, and this morning i found the usual, lovely comment from iron_stiletto in my semi-neglected mailbox, reminding me that today the finals began... at least in italy. sooo

BUONA MATURITA' AD iron_stiletto shiome gudinne_skadi IN BOCCA AL LUPO AL QUADRATO ED OGNI SORTA DI CULO ESPRESSO, RITI DI MAGIA BIANCA E NERA, DANZE PROPIZIATORIE E BUONI PENSIERI DA PARTE MIA.

okie, i should have said this yesterday, but the very unlikely in this period god is just more disconnected than EVER. i sent alot of good thoughts to you, anyway, as i was hearing to that piece of news.

this made me come to my mind my own finals, too. at that time it was still the old fashioned finals, with two oral and two written subjects and the external board of teachers. dunno if now it's better or worse, but the finals are always a tiring and panicking thing.
'though i have a lot of good remembrances about mine ones, such as my italian teacher offering me cigarettes, while we sat on the INSIDE stairs, during free moments. now it comes to my mind that i dreamt of her last night. she was a great and cool teacher!!!!! ...

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in difference lies beauty

May 29th, 2006 (05:32 pm)
calm

the god is: lovin' all the world

i'm a REDHEAD so i MUST love cocksCollapse )

no personal entries, but this must be published

tons of love, everyone.

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aaawwwwww

May 26th, 2006 (04:38 pm)
loved

the god is: loved

i just don't deserve the wonderful people on my friend list

how could i stay away from you so long? *beats herself on the head with a big rock - HARD*

thankyou, thankyou i feel much better now

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May 26th, 2006 (03:05 pm)
crushed

the god is: on the verge of tears

when you think you're happy, then something comes to spoil everything

and i know i've been lucky in finding a new job quite soon and everything, but this is not my dream job - i wanted with all of my strenght to get out of the university and everything and find a real job. since i couldn't, i decided not to ask too much from fate and accept the situation. which is not bad at all - though i'm doing things i've never done, with no one teaching me as usual and this contract will last only until the end of august, although i have good hopes it will be renewed.

but today i heard two of my old colleagues and one got my dream job and the other one the second in list. a REAL job, in a REAL industry, with 3 years of contract the first one, the second i didn't even ask. for something i would be expert, too.

they applied just like me, they're both older than me and one of them doesn't even have a PhD nor is a chemist (she's biologist and she's doing the job of a biochemist). i feel really spoiled, since in the end i found a job too, even before them, and one of them even has a child, she really need to earn money.

but...
whatsoever.

but right now i feel like crying...

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May 12th, 2006 (06:46 pm)
nervous

current location: siena
the god is: aaaaah
the god is listening: silence, blessed silence

not able to write a decent entry. i feel funky, funny and fuzzy, rl ate my brain away. and this uneasiness about writing the things that happened to me in the last period, probably means that i didn't digest all the changes already. i didn't feel like writing this entry. i haven't felt like logging in lj since quite a while ago and actually i didn't since more than a month ago.

then i found a certain message in my mailbox (you know i'm speaking of you dearie, but i don't dare to pronounce your name - thankyou for finding my old self when even i wasn't able to) and i understood that procrastination was pointless. i wouldn't have felt like blogging until i actually have tried. i'm trying.

i felt the uneasiness of my move when i finally found a job, since all my habits changed. when i was unemployed my stay in siena could resemble a long vacation. still i had a lot of time for myself. then i began to work again and i had to slip into a new routine. with long hours of work and the free time wholly spent with another person. i haven't written a single line, and my fidgeting with photoshop decreased a lot, too. i suddenly found my inner silence filled with sound.

that now i'm trying to find again.


about rl, i found this job in the university of siena. my research field has changed again, now i'm synthetizing biopolymers (chemistry, yay!!!!) and culturing fibroblast to test the materials compatibility. overall i'm satisfied, even because they pay me quite good and i need money desperately since i received the last salary at the end of february. i'm working with some nice guys and girls and a completely mad professor, who is a redhead btw. the university is in a wonderful place and everyday i walk there among hills and gardens full of flowers. i discovered i enjoy a lot the country life, especially now that the weather is so fine =). i found also some old friends i met in congresses and a guy i worked a lot with when i was staying in firenze, so i always have someone who comes to lunch with me.

this is what. i'll try to be more present from now on. to myself, first.

and now, welcome back to gudinne_skadi. a new name, a new life! but you cannot disguise yourself with that icon you chose XD



random kisses and confetti everyone!

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tomi's back, back again

March 28th, 2006 (05:30 pm)
ecstatic

the god is: dull

well, somehow.

in two days i will begin my new job at the university of siena, so i'm enjoying the last of my forcedholidays. unfortunately the weather is crappier than ever. and since i have still some credit in my net cafe card, here we go XD.

still i haven't understood exactly what i'm going to do there but hell they pay me! although not so much - and still i have to sign the contract- and still the funds for that haven't been found but yeah, we're in italy , babe!!!!. it looks like i'll be involved in the organization of the labs for the new building of a newborn company which should be founded today and produce the aforementioned materials. i'm quite nervous, since i'm not sure i know enough things on these topics, but hopefully i will be able to make them believe i do!

so yay!!!!

even because the only other option i've had up to now is to somehow i don't want to know how work with lab rats pumped full with anti-depressants, with devices implanted in their brain.

which is
1- utterly cruel
2- pointless (as far as i've learnt of molecular mechanisms of drugs action)
3- something i absolutely don't want to do

i already spoke with the guy i should start to work with (antonio) and he told me i can bring my lappie there and i will have a shiny new ip. dunno how much i will be able to lj while there, though. i have to study the situation XD

and now i have to go. a dull entry, i know, but this is how i feel. XD it will change in a very little time hopefully

see around - hugs, kisses and whipped bishonen on top (only for the amateurs of genre)

bye

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piccies - spring in siena

March 19th, 2006 (12:15 pm)
naughty

the god is: grrr... rumble

as i promised, posting some of the piccies i took in siena last week. the day was quite cloudy, so i got interesting light effects

to the thumbnails...Collapse )

annnnd, belle_deces, find your thingie hereCollapse )

that's all folks =)

i prolly founda job, btw, but i'm too upset about it to speak of it properly.

see around, love + hugs to everyone out there

rawr

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spring is here again - tender age in bloom

March 15th, 2006 (01:25 pm)
bouncy

the god is: springy
the god is listening: some melody i don't know and i don't like XD

siena is lovely in the spring !!!!
i found a much cheaper cafe where posting cvs etc, but i am not willing to stay closed in a room for too long. outside the sun is shining and all the flowers are blossoming - xpecially violets, which i heart =). this afternoon i'm planning to go out to pick up flowers and shoot pics, hopefully i will be able to post 'em during the weekend since i will be back at my parents' home = limitless net (at least when everyone's sleeping =). i'd like to share them with you since here the spring is so damn lovely i couldn't believe, the first time i saw it (and it was three years ago)

on the job front, something is moving, through a very gentle professor of the siena university, who knows a lot of people and made a bunch of phone calls to introduce me which is seemingly the only way to get a job in italy, latey.... this professor is the supervisor of one of my previous housemates, and i first met him a couple of years ago at some congress, since the univerities of siena and firenze are very close. but i never actually worked with him, so having him making calls and telling "i have this very very good researcher looking for a position" was quite weird XD. anywhoa, thankfully the world is full of kind people (who incidentally love miniskirts).
and i met one =)

and i'm keeping on writing this piece in italian with my friend cisco. it's coming out very autobiographic and since my character is male, he will obviously be gay - damn my prevness. incredible, still i can manage to write in italian, though sometimes i realize i'm applying some english rules of period construction and that's really weird

what more do i have to say?
hydrangea i can't keep the pace with everything you watching at - but i keep on reading at you, be sure!
belle_deces i have something for you, but i keep on forgetting to take the file with me, so be patient.

and to everyone else listening goes all my love!

kisses - my time is running short XD

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here again

March 8th, 2006 (01:22 pm)
relaxed

the god is: relaxed
the god is listening: subsonica - il cielo su torino

i'm back in firenze for a couple of days - as some of you prolly already know.

spoke with my boss to ask him to introduce me to someone in siena (where it looks impossible to get a job in the biotech area if you don't know someone) and he told me that in this univerity research center you have to make yourself be loved. which means i prolly didn't.
well, i didn't for sure - bad attitude me - 'though he told me HE loves me xpecially in miniskirt and now i'm almost sure that a female professor whom i had a fight with a couple of years ago is taking her vengeance (to be served cool). i should have expected this. despite the fact that during the past three years an half, i did all the work they asked me, often sacrificing my private life, for a monthly grant which is lower than a bus driver salary (...). despite the fact they have their names on three papers i worked on while they didn't. but these are places where you are appreciated first for your obedience and after for you scientific activities. i've been very, very stupid...
anywhoa, he told me he would do some phone calls where i sent my CVs, but i'm not very confident in this.

the BRIGHT note is that my writing project with that friend of mine cisco is going on despite our private lives XD
and that life with bf is heaven (kinda...) after sharing for two years and a half the crappy house i had in firenze with the two strange guys i was living with.
aaaaah. now i realized how stressed i was in the uni - i won't be like that anymore hopefully.

in the end the transmission interrupted was not true XD this makes me happy. there is more net i can exploit than i thought. 'though stil a home connection seems far far away...

hear of you next, ppl! kisses for everyone and great huggles.

EDIT the date on this crappy common PC is wrong and i don't have the administrator privileges to fix it 'fanculo
taci che me ne sto andando va'

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thankie...

March 8th, 2006 (12:52 pm)
awake

the god is: on forced holidays XD
the god is listening: clicking of keyboards

posting quickly as a bolt of lightning from an internet shop in siena.
thankie everyone for your kind words =) you make tomi a happy god.

belle_deces it's nice of you to friend me and i'm friending you back willingly =). just, jou can see, this is not the best period for lj... and i am a monster, obviously

again, take care, all of you. i can't check how you are, but i wish you tons of fillakia (which should be the greek word for good things and love, more or less).

hear of you soon XD

rawr

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tramission discontinued

March 3rd, 2006 (12:51 pm)
crushed

the god is: crushed
the god is listening: jeff buckley - last goodbye

weeee lots of updates today after a long silence.
wuvvvz rl ate away my dreaming time andddd really i had no mind left to do these thingies

but today's the last day with full net so i thought it was good to say goodbye properly

goodbye

really, i'm sad.
tomorrow or the next day i will move definitively from firenze to siena, where the net is lacking.
i'm losing at the same time all my friends here at the university and all of you digital dearies.
although i know i will have net connection again as soon as possible and that siena and firenze are not very far one from the other, i'm crushed

okie, quit this, since it's useless

i'll be back soon, alive and kicking. you will see XD.
and since i'll be in forced holidays, at least i'll have time to write this project in italian i started with an old friens and classmate of mine, and do a lot of other things i've been planning since forever without never having the time of actually doing them. for example a sitey wuvvz.

so stay well, all of you! much of luck and happiness and don't let the sky crash on your heads.

I'LL TRY TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE during the time being. plz do not abandon me XD

lots of love to everyone

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spread the love

March 3rd, 2006 (12:06 pm)
complacent

the god is: on a crusade!
the god is listening: latte e i suoi derivati

taken fron jukebox_jezebel

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear......

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person who hates everyone, everything, everytime because I care. I do so because if I love then I'll lose everything.

I am the one who cries at night, for the lost ones, The ones who are afraid, and the ones who couldn't take their lives............ for the ones who still don't know who they are.

Repost this if you think Homophobia is wrong.


....because hate kills more than weapons

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jrock iconsz

March 2nd, 2006 (08:47 pm)
drained
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the god is: drained
the god is listening: latte e i suoi derivati

second and last entry of goodies: jrock iconsz

first we have gackt

teasers
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then miyavi

teasers:
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this is what.
hope you liked it XD

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renoxcloud - 50 sentences more

March 2nd, 2006 (05:46 pm)
calm
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the god is: dulled

hopefully today i'll be able to post all the thingies i've been doing in this period.
starting from the second set of sentences for 1sentence

Fandom: FFVII AC
Pairing: reno x cloud
Theme: gamma
Warning: set apart yaoi not much. a little of nudity and some smex. excessive fluffiness in some parts
Spoilers for FFVII AC (i assume you could figure it out, but…)
Rating: PG-13

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????

February 20th, 2006 (04:36 pm)

new things keep on coming at work - and they won't renew my contract, so it means i won't be around so much for the week, then after nxt tuesday bang!
cast out of the net

i'm trying to convince my bf to get a connection at home, since i will be moving at his place, but given that he'll be in charge for the rent and bills until i find something to do (thnkfully i got some little spare money to survive) it's not like i can insist too much XD. though i dunno how i'll find something to do if i can't check e-mails and send new curricula though all the tuscany is seemingly flooded by my CVs, and no one answered

for this reason there are internet points, but they're damn costly and

bwaaaah ;.;

anywhoawuvzzz sorry for not being much around in the past, and in advance for the time being.

kisses and hugs

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miyavi goodies and other stuff

February 16th, 2006 (05:41 pm)
sore

the god is: eyes popping out from skull
the god is listening: miyavi - needless to say

time for an update. i'm more disconnected than ever, plz keep this in mind.

first of all, got some myiavi PVs up, find the linkies in the jrock goodies for xcg .
i upped even speed master live just for the heck of it; shiome i've seen you have some speed master in your list, but i dunno if it's the same i have. if it's not be sure you take it - and keep some tissue paper at hand in any case XD. blood leaking on the keyboard is hell, xpecially when it coagulates under the keys

and hyde too =) hell whatever

i remember you that for my friends, music and vids requests are free XD. just plz keep in mind that i got the net only at work, so it could take one day - and NEVER during weekends

was finally able to dwld oresama (miyavi movie) = 1 hour of shameless miyavi pimping XD. probably one of the poorest movies ever but littered with hottie(s) so it was worth the time spent to watch it.

finished the second installment for 7.42 aka the adventures of a random bishie and Mr Nosebleed, just have to type it up XDDD. mebbe nxt week.

ladyvanilla i saw your post about that natural world movie though i didn't say a word about it. the piccies are wonderful! i got an icon out of the first one and planning the same with the others



iconifying like crazy in this period. too lazy to post, we'll see XD

and now, since i was tagged by hydrangea,

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now tagging
iron_stiletto shadow_icia ladyvanilla thenaiadmuse and jukebox_jezebel


to complete this same quiz, is HERE.

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disconnected

February 14th, 2006 (04:13 pm)
bitchy

the god is: rl sucks like vamp!hyde

rl is sucking more than ever, and it looks like this fact enhances my disconnection. so sorry to everyone for what i did, and for what still has to come XD

whatever happens, be sure it's my disconnection speaking and not the true lovely tomi, who seems in vacation in these days.

well, to diminish the seriousness of this post, an happy announce!
I CHANGED LAYOUT. this looks more in theme with myself in this period. not very interesting, but this made me happy

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